Blue

I feel blue tonight. I hate saying that because my mom says it. But I am.

It doesn't help that I'm listening to John Denver sing "Leavin' On A Jet Plane". Reminds me of my dad, only he's not coming back. And in the song the dude is going to marry the chick, and that would just be wrong!

Heh... just thinking that made me feel a little better.

I've been having spending problems again. Spending too much, on not the right things. I think it's because I feel alone. So I want to buy things, things for myself, things for others to send to them, so I don't feel so alone. Which is silly, really, because I'm not. I have loads of friends, even a few close ones now, so I guess this is just the sickness talking, right?

I'm going to bed now. Or at least, I'm done writing tonight anyway.